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SC: Series division finale Noble Saturday summary - Motorsport.com
THE NEED FOR SPEED Ocean Springs native finds success on the drag boat ... - Biloxi Sun Herald
TRACK TALK: Thompson hosts Whelen Modified Tour finale - Enterprise
Brad Keselowski Wins $75,000 in Nationwide Insurance's Dash 4 Cash ... - Newsblaze.com
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SC: Series division finale Noble Saturday summary - Motorsport.com

Posted: 24 Oct 2009 08:26 PM PDT

Pairings Set at Thunder Valley Raceway

NOBLE, Okla. (October 24, 2009) -- Day two of three is complete of NHRA's Lucas Oil Drag Racing Series event hosted at Thunder Valley Raceway. This race is the last of six in South Central division competition with current points leaders making moves to hold onto their rankings. Final qualifying is complete with Top Alcohol Dragster pilot James Thompson of Vernon, Texas, and Top Alcohol Funny Car driver Vern Moats, Des Moines, Iowa, taking the No.1 positions going into Sunday's eliminations.

Thompson comes from the bottom of the pack and blasts a 5.308 second, 274.39 mph pass to grab the top spot. This puts him just ahead of Brandon Lewis from Broken Arrow, Okla., who posted a 5.322 second, 267.85 mph lap. Lewis, the current points leader, has won the last two races he's attended, an out-of-division event in Topeka, Kan., and at No Problem Raceway Park in Belle Rose, La. He holds a slim 32-point lead over Claremore, Okla.'s Malcolm Wahle, who sits in the No.3 qualifying position.

Steve Harker, Gainesville, Ga., is dropped down to the No.2 slot due to Moats 5.658 second, 256.48 mph run. Moats races out of the West Central division and is searching for his first divisional win of the season. He will be going into Sunday's eliminations with a first round bye.

Top qualifier in Comp Eliminator was Rick Brown of Lebanon, Ohio; Jeff Colvert, Arkadelphia, Ark., jumped up a spot in the Super Stock class and Brian McClanahan, Alta Loma, Calif., held onto the lead in Stock Eliminator. The Sunset Racecraft Top Sportsman Series is lead by divisional points leader Keith Raftery of Lake Charles, La., and Don Aydelott of Vernon, Texas, held onto the top spot in the TCI Comp Cams Top Dragster Series. The Sportsman Motorcycle Series presented by Harley Davidson is still lead by Dan Rollman, Oklahoma City, Okla., with his perfect reaction time.

Gates open at 8 a.m. Sunday for eliminations beginning at 9 a.m. Eliminations for Top Alcohol Dragster and Top Alcohol Funny Car begin at noon.

General admission with a pit pass is only $20 for adults and children 6 to 12 years old are $5 each day. Kids 5 and under are admitted free with a paid adult. Military personnel with valid ID receive a $5 discount. For more information please call Thunder Valley Raceway, (405) 872-3429, or visit www.OkThunder.com.

The following are Saturday's final qualifying results from the NHRA Lucas Oil Drag Racing Series, South Central Division event at Thunder Valley Raceway Park:

TOP ALCOHOL DRAGSTER
1) James Thompson, Vernon, Texas, 5.308 seconds, 274.39 mph
2) Brandon Lewis, Broken Arrow, Okla., 5.322, 267.85
3) Malcolm Wahle, Claremore, Okla., 5.383, 267.14
4) Richard Putz, Earlville, Iowa, 5.455, 262.00
5) Dan Mercier, Laprairie, Quebec, 5.484, 265.64
6) Darryl Hitchman, Greenville, Texas, 5.550, 261.55
7) Michael Manners, Willis, Texas, 5.567, 271.65
8) Brandon Pierce, Moore, Okla., 5.595, 266.98 Not Qualified
9) Buddy Domingue, Port Neches, Texas, 5.692, 247.45
10) Chase Copeland, Ft. Worth, Texas, 5.723, 253.30

First round TAD pairings
1) James Thompson, Vernon, Texas, 5.308 seconds, 274.39 mph vs. 8) Brandon Pierce, Moore, Okla., 5.595, 266.98

2) Brandon Lewis, Broken Arrow, Okla., 5.322, 267.85 vs. 7) Michael Manners, Willis, Texas, 5.567, 271.65

3) Malcolm Wahle, Claremore, Okla., 5.383, 267.14 vs. 6) Darryl, Hitchman Greenville, Texas, 5.550, 261.55

4) Richard Putz, Earlville, Iowa, 5.455, 262.00 vs. 5) Dan Mercier, Laprairie, Quebec, 5.484, 265.64

TOP ALCOHOL FUNNY CAR
1) Vern Moats, Des Moines, Iowa, '08 Mustang, 5.658 seconds, 256.48 mph
2) Steve Harker, Gainesville, Ga., '06 Monte Carlo, 5.691, 253.02
3) Chris Foster, Davenport, Iowa, '06 Monte Carlo, 5.762, 246.30
4) Jimmy Jones, Cleburne, Texas, '06 Monte Carlo, 5.800, 248.89
5) Lance Van Hauen, Reinbeck, Iowa, '05 Firebird, 5.810, 246.64
6) Burl Brown, Gainesville, Texas, '09 Mustang, 5.880, 246.30
7) Ron Morrison, Oklahoma City, Okla., '06 Monte Carlo, 6.178, 236.90

First round TAFC pairings
1) Vern Moats, Des Moines, Iowa, '08 Mustang, 5.658 seconds, 256.48 mph vs. Bye

2) Steve Harker, Gainesville, Ga., '06 Monte Carlo, 5.691, 253.02 vs. 7) Ron Morrison, Oklahoma City, Okla., '06 Monte Carlo, 6.178, 236.90

3) Chris Foster, Davenport, Iowa, '06 Monte Carlo, 5.762, 246.30 vs. 6) Burl Brown, Gainesville, Texas, '09 Mustang, 5.880, 246.30

4) Jimmy Jones, Cleburne, Texas, '06 Monte Carlo, 5.800, 248.89 vs. 5) Lance Van Hauen, Reinbeck, Iowa, '05 Firebird, 5.810, 246.64

COMP ELIMINATOR
1) Rick Brown, Lebanon, Ohio, '00 S-10, B/TA, 8.253 seconds, -0.587 (under index)
2) Adam Hickey, Hammond, La., '06 Cobalt, C/SMA, 8.206, -0.584
3) Kevin Smith, Parker, Colo., '04 Cavalier, B/AA, 7.060, -0.570
4) Shane Gray, Artesia, N.M., '07 Stratus, B/A, 7.027, -0.533
5) Clark Smiley, Denver City, Texas, '05 Cavalier, B/SM, 8.148, -0.532
6) Will Hatcher, Satanta, Kan., dragster, A/DA, 6.617, -0.523
7) Matthew Harris, Nebraska City, Neb., '05 Grand Am, D/A, 7.739, -0.521
8) Chase Williams, Carthage, Texas, '07 GTO, C/A, 7.461, -0.519
9) Scott Parks, Burlingame, Kan., dragster, A/ND, 6.904, -0.516
10) Darin West, Dumas, Texas, '02 Neon, F/AA, 8.027, -0.513

SUPER STOCK
1) Jeff Colvert, Arkadelphia, Ark., '69 Mustang, SS/G, 9.482 seconds, -1.268 (under index)
2) David Bogner, Kearney, Neb., '92 Daytona, SS/CS, 9.446, -1.204
3) Allan Patterson, Augusta, Kan., '66 Nova, SS/KA, 10.363, -1.187
4) Larry DeForrest, Ramsey, Minn., '98 Firebird, SS/IA, 9.816, -1.184
5) Tony Cowell, Weatherford, Texas, '81 Camaro, GT/JA, 10.444, -1.156
6) Robert Cruzen, Cleveland, Okla., '02 Cavalier, GT/EA, 9.799, -1.151
7) Rick Brown, Lebanon, Ohio, '92 Cutlass, GT/KA, 10.641, -1.109
8) Jeremy Stock, Sandusky, Ohio, '85 Camaro, GT/JA, 10.501, -1.099
9) Justin Jenkins, Beatrice, Neb., '09 Cobalt, GT/CA, 9.605, -1.095
10) Jimmy DeFrank, Chatsworth, Calif., '09 Cobalt, SS/BS, 8.856, -1.094

STOCK ELIMINATOR
1) Brian McClanahan, Alta Loma, Calif., '02 Firebird, B/SA, 10.302 seconds, -1.248 (under index)
2) David Buckner, New Waverly, Texas, '72 Duster, F/SA, 10.940, -1.210
3) Dean Oliver, Stuttgart, Ark., '79 Malibu, K/SA, 11.830, -1.120
4) Martin Burke, Leonard, Texas, '69 Mustang, B/SA, 10.435, -1.115
5) A.J. Patterson, Augusta, Kan., '97 Camaro, C/SA, 10.590, -1.110
6) Jerry Davis, Santa Fe, Texas, '72 Duster, G/SA, 11.191, -1.109
7) Tom Moock, Eagle, Neb., '81 Malibu, M/SA, 12.067, -1.083
8) Gary Emmons, Friendswood, Texas, '98 Firebird, C/SA, 10.618, -1.082
9) Edmond Richardson, Greenbrier, Tenn., '99 Camaro, B/SA, 10.505, -1.045
10) Bobby Brannon, Bossier City, La., '02 Firebird, B/SA, 10.519, -1.031

TOP SPORTSMAN
1) Keith Raftery, Lake Charles, La., '07 GTO, 6.463 seconds, 216.60 mph
2) Billy Torrence, Kilgore, Texas, '09 GXP, 6.471, 215.20
3) Raymond Vettel, Phillips, Neb., '70 Barracuda, 6.505, 213.37
4) Greg Tucker, Lindsay, Okla., '09 GXP, 6.643, 210.87
5) Keith Haney, Broken Arrow, Okla., '09 GXP, 6.714, 207.08
6) Brian Barnett, Yukon, Okla., '68 Camaro, 6.764, 208.38
7) Joshua Vettel, Phillips, Neb., '04 Stratus, 6.815, 201.56
8) Gregory Porter, Edmond, Okla., '08 GXP, 6.829, 200.53
9) Greg Lair, Canyon, Texas, '04 Grand Am, 6.848, 205.62
10) Scott Randall, Carrollton, Texas, '08 GXP, 6.854, 201.38

TOP DRAGSTER
1) Don Aydelott, Vernon, Texas, dragster, 6.391 seconds, 215.93 mph
2) Brandon Chauvin, Gonzales, La., dragster, 6.594, 204.77
3) Phil Unruh, McPherson, Kan., dragster, 6.612, 208.42
4) Howard McCullar, McAlester, Okla., dragster, 6.627, 202.93
5) Kevin Ford, Amarillo, Texas, dragster, 6.704, 201.02
6) Bradley Thompson, Vernon, Texas, dragster, 6.729, 212.31
7) Jenifer White, Conroe, Texas, dragster, 6.740, 199.02
8) Ray Miller, Spring Hill, Fla., dragster, 6.752, 199.29
9) Jerry Story, Norman, Okla., dragster, 6.755, 200.40
10) John Garner, Houston, Texas, dragster, 6.758, 201.34

SPORTSMAN MOTORCYCLE
1) Dan Rollman, Oklahoma City, Okla., '77 Kawasaki, ETMX, 0.000 seconds reaction time
2) Michael Nash, Texarkana, Texas, '09 Koenig, ETMX, 0.003
3) Jerry Pomilla, Conroe, Texas, '85 Suzuki, ETMX, 0.005
4) Ken Niesen, Brooklyn Park, Minn., '85 Suzuki, ETMX, 0.009
5) Tom Gilligan, Fremont, Neb., '77 Kawasaki, ETMX, 0.009
6) Lisa Bennett, Lucas, Texas, '95 Suzuki, ETMX, 0.010
7) Larry Eperjesi, Lake Dallas, Texas, '00 Suzuki, ETMX, 0.017
8) Robert Sanders, Houston, Texas, '04 Kawasaki, ETMX, 0.018
9) Rob Bennett, Lucas, Texas, '07 Suzuki, ETMX, 0.019
10) Alex Barmettler, Maplewood, Minn., '78 Kawasaki, ETMX, 0.019

-credit: nhra

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THE NEED FOR SPEED Ocean Springs native finds success on the drag boat ... - Biloxi Sun Herald

Posted: 24 Oct 2009 08:55 PM PDT

More specifically, his need for speed began on the motocross circuit., Now, it has since expanded to the highly competitive world of drag boat racing.

''I used to race motorcycles, but I got too old for that,'' Caldwell said. ''Motorcycle racing is a young man's sport. I am 42 and married now.''

With that in mind, Caldwell kept his spirit to compete a live when he pursued drag boat racing.

The 2009 drag boat racing season saw Caldwell become a three-time world champion, including winning a title in the Outlaw class recently during the Deep South Racing Association's world finals at the Dock Bar and Grill on Gulfport Lake.

In that race, Caldwell hit top speeds of 115 mph en route to capping off a year in which he never tasted the agony of defeat on the DSRA circuit behind the wheel of 21-foot Allison drag boat.

''When I got too old for motorcycle racing, I wanted to get into boat racing,'' Caldwell said. ''It's a rush, that's for sure.

"It's also a lot of fun.''

A week after claiming the DSRA World Championship, Caldwell added world titles in Pro Fuel and Unlimited in the Outboard Drag Boat Association in Jasper, Tenn.

"Running a quarter-mile (track) I hit 126 mph,'' Caldwell said. "That's a 9.2 second quarter-mile. It was a good year.''

So what's Caldwell's recipe for success?

First of all, it's his knowledge of outboard engines. Secondly, it's a twist of Indy car racing.

That factors into a combination on the water like none other.

"I developed my own motors,'' Caldwell said. "I customize my engines. It starts off being a 2.5 liter Mercury race motor. But I modify it to 450 horsepower and I use alcohol.

"I wanted to come up with something different that no one else had. I came up with Indy car fuel injectors and made them work with Mercury race motors.

In all, it took five or six years to develop. But it was worth it.

"Other people are trying to run it, but they have not been as successful. They do not understand it as well as I do.''

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TRACK TALK: Thompson hosts Whelen Modified Tour finale - Enterprise

Posted: 24 Oct 2009 08:19 PM PDT

The NASCAR Whelen Modified Tour is a racing series steeped in history.

Whether you trace its roots to the beaches of Daytona in 1948, or the paved banks of Thompson, Conn., in 1985, there is plenty of history and tradition to go around.

The present-day incarnation of that tradition will be on full display this weekend as the Tour heads to Thompson International Speedway to crown the 2009 champion.

The World Series of Speedway Racing — the finale for the NASCAR Whelen Modified Tour's 25th season — will see two of the most notable teams in the history of the New England Modified racing battling for the trophy.

Donny Lia, pilot of the No. 4 "Mystic Missile" Dodge owned by Bob Garbarino, will take a 26-point lead on Ryan Preece, driver of the No. 3 "Ole Blue" Chevrolet, of the famed Boehler family from E. Freetown.

"It's pretty cool — this being the 25th season (of the Tour) — and the two longest running teams going for the championship," Preece said. "It just goes to show you that experience helps a lot to contend for a championship."

The only two Modifieds that carry a nickname, the Nos. 4 and 3 have been around longer than any other teams. Garbarino fielded his first "Mystic Missile" in 1961, nearly a quarter of a century before the present-day Whelen Modified Tour was founded.

"Ole Blue" dates back even further as legendary car owner and builder Len Boehler founded the team in 1957.

"We've been parking alongside of them for a long, long time, and anything that's in my truck they can have, and I think that goes the other way too," Garbarino said. "I'm happy for them. I'm glad that they're in the running for this whole deal."

Garbarino reasoned that because the teams have been so close through the years, it will be tough for one to leave Thompson disappointed.

"I almost wish it was any other car in the pit area (in championship contention)," Garbarino said. "I consider those guys all good friends and this won't change the friendship at all, but somebody's going to win and somebody's not going to win." \Now in their sixth decade of Modified competition, Boehler Racing Enterprises continues to be a stalwart. The cars built by Boehler, a 2004 NEAR Hall of Fame inductee, produced NASCAR Modified national championships in 1967-69 with Bugs Stevens behind the wheel.

"Ole Blue" earned another three-peat in the mid-1990s as Wayne Anderson (1994) and Tony Hirschman (1995-96) captured the NASCAR Whelen Modified Tour titles.

And while Len passed away in 2001, his widow, Jan, and son, Michael, have sustained the family tradition from their E. Freetown race shop.

Like Garbarino, BRE President and Manager Michael Boehler has mutual respect for the competition.

"Bob and his wife Joan are great, great people – they're first class," Boehler said. "They're always the first ones there to lend a hand if something goes wrong. They're positive, encouraging people, and they've given their life to the sport like we have.

"There's not many of those families left that do that, so it's just great that it's the "Mystic Missile" against "Ole Blue"."

The significance of the two teams competing for the title is not lost on the drivers either, even though they are only in the second year with the respective teams.

While Lia is already part of the history of the "Mystic Missile," the 18-year-old Preece is just in his second year behind the wheel of "Ole Blue," and his third year of NASCAR Whelen Modified Tour racing overall.

"I'm really happy that the 3 car is where they are, and that we're going for the championship together," Lia said. "He's a good kid, and he's got a great future ahead of him. Hopefully we can hang on and win it, but if they do, that's pretty cool."

The young Ryan Preece is well-versed in Modified history. His grandfather – Bob Judkins – was a longtime Modified car owner. Lia can clinch his second Whelen Modified Tour crown by finishing fifth or better at Thompson, but with Preece just 26 points out, there are a number of scenarios that will make every lap important in the season finale.

The World Series of Speedway Racing presented by Xtra Mart will commence with practice and qualifying for the Whelen Modified Tour today. The 150-lap race is set to go green Sunday at approximately 3:30 p.m.

Other teams with local ties competing in the World Series include; Canton's Rick Savary and Eric Beers, who will be driving the Berkley Racing wrenched by Bob Caton. Marshfield's Bob Grigas, III could be among the absent due to a two race suspension for an infraction at the Stafford Motor Speedway in CT a few weeks ago.

Several other divisions will also take part in this weekend's program at Thompson Speedway.

The owners championship is still a question mark as the Northeastern Midget Association brings the 2009 season to a finish at Thompson Speedway's rescheduled World Series this weekend.

Defending champion Tim Bertrand (47) takes a 26-point edge on Mike Jarret (4) into tomorrow's 25-lap feature. NEMA has a long relationship with the World Series that was rained out last weekend.

Championship battles ending at the traditional season-ending event are hardly unique. It will be NEMA's only visit to Thompson this season.

Bertrand's driver Randy Cabral of Plymouth already has his second straight championship in hand. Jarret's driver Nokie Fornoro is assured of second place in the final standings.

Both are seasoned-hands on the ultra-quick fifth mile, totaling 11 victories between them. Cabral, the "unofficial " record holder with a 17.620 lap turned at last year's World Series, is the club's all-time Thompson winner with seven. Fornoro has been winning at Thompson since 1982. Russ and Greg Stoehr, of Bridgewater and Lakeville, have both been involved in classic season ending-races at Thompson in the past as well.

Clearly the fastest place NEMA visits, a victory at Thompson is a perfect ending. Adam Cantor, the winner a couple weeks back at Twin State, makes no secret of his desire to end a strong campaign in Thompson's Victory Lane.

Other possibilities for the Marvin Rifchin Trophy are Jeff Horn, Erica Santos of Franklin and Jim Miller. Chris DeRitis, NEMA's top rookie, Abby Martino and John Zych Jr. are among the drivers seeking to protect top-10 spots in the driver and owner standings.

Cabral, who doesn't like talking about points, had five wins among ten top-fives in 13 starts en route to the drivers championship. He comes to the World Series in pursuit of his 27th career win, all of them coming in the past 10 campaigns. In one less start, Fornoro had a couple wins among 10 tops 10s. He'll be after his 45th NEMA checkered.

NEMA missing from Oktoberfest:

It's unfortunate that the NEMA Midgets and Lites won't be coming to the Oktoberfest in Lee, N.H., as previously scheduled.

It's due to last weekend's washout of the World Series of Stockcar Racing at the Thompson Speedway in Connecticut.

The Oktoberfest, like the World Series, is comprised of over ten classes. The weather, at this time of year, has always created schedule conflicts compounded by the fact that the New England tracks prefer to have their racing season completed no later than Halloween.

Because the weather in this part of the country starts to go downhill in November. As a result, the Oktoberfest and the World Series will both take place starting yesterday through Sunday, weather permitting.

Today is Waterford (CT) Speedbowl's annual Smacktoberfest, featuring the affordable family fun and season ending smashing Speedbowl fans have come to love. With the racing season over the goal is set on turning the Speedbowl into an enormous junkyard of motorized mayhem. The grandstands open at noon.

Pomona finals on tap:

Never before in the history of the series have six riders had a mathematical shot at winning the AMA Pro Flat Track Grand National Expert Twins in the final race of the season.

Jared Mees has 128 points, Kenny Coolbeth, sponsored by Bettencourt Honda/Suzuki of West Bridgewater has 113 point., Bryan Smith 111 points, Sammy Halbert 109, Chris Carr 104, Jake Johnson 101 This is the first time in a decade the series will wrap up in beautiful southern California and there is no better location than the Fairplex in Pomona.

Weekend roundup:

Let's see what else is going on in southern New England this weekend. Today Formula 1 Outdoors in East Bridgewater has a big shifter kart meet all day long starting at 9 a.m. At the same time the Capeway Rovers in Middleboro host motoX action. Going with Quarter Midget action is the Little T Speedway in Thompson, CT at 9 a.m. There's another cruise event at Redline Diner on Edgell Rd. in Framingham starting at 3 p.m. Tomorrow the Clarion Hotel in W. Springfield will be the scene of the ACOT Antique Racers annual banquet at 1 p.m.

On Sunday, F1 Outdoors offers a 125 lap Endurance event for karts at 9 a.m. Larz Anderson Museum on Newton St. in Brookline plans Studebaker day beginning at 10 a.m. At Southeastern Regional Votec High School, on Rt. 106 in South Easton, it's another Wheels of Time Cruise starting at 11 a.m.

Wachusetts Valley Riders in Winchendon offers flat track motorcycle action and go karts plus a swap meet at 1 p.m. Also on Sunday is a Super Cruise Car Show in the Papa Gino's parking lot at 103 Pleasant St. (Rte. 123) Attleboro from 11 a.m. to 2 p.m. across the street from the grand opening of a new Auto Zone store.

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Brad Keselowski Wins $75,000 in Nationwide Insurance's Dash 4 Cash ... - Newsblaze.com

Posted: 24 Oct 2009 07:43 PM PDT

MEMPHIS, Tenn. - (BUSINESS WIRE) - NASCAR Nationwide Series driver Brad Keselowski had several thousand extra reasons to celebrate after the checkered flag at the Kroger on Track for the Cure 250 at Memphis Motorsports Park.

Brad Keselowski won $25,000 in the final Nationwide Insurance Dash 4 Cash race of the 2009 season and the overall $50,000 Dash 4 Cash bonus for the highest cumulative points from the four NASCAR Nationwide Series stand-alone races in Nashville, Kentucky, Iowa and Memphis.

Joey Logano won the first two Dash 4 Cash races at Nashville Superspeedway and Kentucky Speedway. Logano did not run a full schedule in the Nationwide Series this year and was ineligible to win the bonus. Brad Keselowski took home the $75,000 rollover bonus after winning the US Cellular 250 at Iowa Speedway in August.

"NASCAR Nationwide Series drivers and teams are among the best in the world," said Jennifer Hanley, Senior Vice President of Marketing Services for Nationwide Insurance. "Nationwide Insurance's Dash 4 Cash bonus added a lot of excitement to the 2009 NASCAR Nationwide Series stand-alone races and we're proud to present Brad Keselowski with these bonuses."

Nationwide Insurance's Dash 4 Cash is a first-of-its-kind bonus program for the NASCAR Nationwide Series implemented by Nationwide, NASCAR and ESPN focused around four stand-alone races in Nashville, Kentucky, Iowa and Memphis.

The program was open to all NASCAR Nationwide Series regulars and up-and-comers, including those who may not have a full-time NASCAR Nationwide Series ride. NASCAR Nationwide Series drivers with a full time ride in NASCAR Sprint Cup had to enter every NASCAR Nationwide Series event in order to qualify for the cash payouts.

Nationwide, based in Columbus, Ohio, is one of the largest and strongest diversified insurance and financial services organizations in the U.S. and is rated A+ by A.M. Best. The company provides a full range of personalized insurance and financial services, including auto insurance, motorcycle, boat, homeowners, life insurance, farm, commercial insurance, administrative services, annuities, mortgages, mutual funds, pensions, long-term savings plans and health and productivity services. For more information, visit www.nationwide.com.

The NASCAR Nationwide Series logo and word mark are used under license by the National Association for Stock Car Auto Racing, Inc., and Nationwide Mutual Insurance Company. NASCAR and the NASCAR logo are registered trademarks of the National Association for Stock Auto Racing, Inc. Nationwide, Nationwide Insurance, and the Nationwide Frame mark are federally registered service marks of Nationwide Mutual Insurance Company.

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Document: Victim impact statement of girl in Misty Series - HamptonRoads.com

Posted: 24 Oct 2009 08:19 PM PDT

Editor's note: This is the full text of "a statement by Amy," the girl victimized in the Misty Series, a child pornography video.

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I am a 19 year old girl and I am a victim of child sex abuse and child pornography. I am still discovering all the ways that the abuse and exploitation I suffer has hurt me, has set my life on the wrong course, and destroyed the normal childhood, teenage years, and early adulthood that everyone deserves.

My uncle started to abuse me when I was only 4 years old. He used what I now know are the common ways that abusers get their victims ready for abuse and keep them silent: he told me that I was special, that he loved me, and that we had our own "special secrets." Since he lived close to our house, my mother and father didn't suspect anything when I walked over there to spend time with him.

At first he showed me pornographic movies and then he started doing things to me. I remember that he put his finger in my vagina and that it hurt a lot. I remember that he tried to have sex with me and that it hurt even more. I remember telling him that it hurt. I remember that much of the time I was with him I did not have clothes on and that sometimes he made me dress up in lingerie. And I remember the pictures.

After the abuse he would take me to buy my favorite snack which was beef jerky. Even now when I eat beef jerky I get feelings of panic, guilt, and humiliation. It's like I can never get away from what happened to me.

At the time I was confused and knew it was wrong and that I didn't like it, but I also thought it was wrong for me to tell anything bad about my uncle who said he loved me and bought me things I liked. He even let me ride on his motorcycle. Now I will never ride on a motorcycle again. The memories are too upsetting.

There is a lot I don't remember, but now I can't forget because the disgusting images of what he did to me are still out there on the internet. For a long time I practiced putting the terrible memories away in my mind. Thinking about it is still really painful. Sometimes I just go into staring spells when I am caught thinking about what happened and not paying any attention to my surroundings.

Every day of my life I live in constant fear that someone will see my pictures and recognize me and that I will be humiliated allover again. It hurts me to know someone is looking at them -- at me -- when I was just a little girl being abused for the camera. I did not choose to be there, but now I am there forever in pictures that people are using to do sick things. I want it all erased. I want it all stopped. But I am powerless to stop it just like I was powerless to stop my uncle.

When they first discovered what my uncle did, I went to therapy and thought I was getting over this. I was very wrong. My full understanding of what happened to me has only gotten dearer as I have gotten older. My life and my feelings are worse now because the crime has never really stopped and will never really stop.

It is hard to describe what it feels like to know that at any moment, anywhere, someone is looking at pictures of me as a little girl being abused by my uncle and is getting some kind of sick enjoyment from it. It's like I am being abused over and over and over again.

I find myself unable to do the simple things that other teenagers handle easily. I do not have a driver's license. Every time I say I am going to do it, I don't. I can't plan well. My mind skips out on me when I think about moving forward with my life. I have been trying to get a job, but I just keep avoiding things. Forgetting is the thing I do best since I was forced as a little girl to live a double life and "forget" what was happening to me. Before I realize it, I miss interviews or other things that will help me get a job.

Sometimes things remind me of the abuse and I don't even realize it until it is too late. For example, I failed anatomy in high school. I simply could not think about the body because of what happened to me. The same thing happened in college. I went to a psychology class where we watched a video about child abuse. Without even realizing why, I just stopped going to class. I failed my freshman year of college and moved back home.

It's easy for me to block out my feelings and avoid things that make me uncomfortable. I don't know when I will be ready to go back to college because I have huge problems with avoiding anything that makes me uncomfortable or reminds me of my abuse.

I am always scared that people can look at me and tell that I am a victim of sex abuse because my abuse is a public fact. I am worried that when my friends are on the internet they are going to come across my pictures and it fills me with shame and embarrassment.

I am humiliated and ashamed that there are pictures of me doing horrible things with my uncle. Everywhere I go I feel judged. Am I the kind of person who does this? Is there something wrong with me? Is there something sickening and disgusting about who I am?

I am embarrassed to tell anyone what happened to me because I'm afraid they will judge me and blame me for it. I live in a small town and I think that if one person knows then everyone will know. I am just living in fear of the day Someone sees those awful pictures of me and then "the secret" about me will be out. It's like my life is on hold for that day and I am frozen in time waiting. I know those disgusting pictures of me are stuck in time and are there forever for everyone to see.

I had terrible nightmares for a long long time. I would wake up sweating and crying and go to my parents for comfort. Now I still get flashbacks sometimes. There are thoughts in my head that are memories of the things that my uncle did to me. My heart will start racing and I will feel sweaty and then a stronger picture will pop up in my head and I have to leave the situation I am in. I have heard the voice of my uncle in my mind still talking to me saying, "don't tell, don't tell, don't tell." 'thinking and knowing that the pictures of all this are still out there just makes it worse. It's like I can't escape from the abuse, now or ever.

Because I've had so many bad dreams, I find it hard to sleep when it's dark. I like to keep the lights on thinking that will protect me from bad dreams. I hate scary movies and sometimes have nightmares for days.

Sometimes I have unreasonable fears that prevent me from doing the normal things that other kids do. My friend once asked me to go with her and her uncle to an amusement park. I could not get it out of my head that I would be abused. In the end I just couldn't go. I kept wondering if my friend's uncle had seen my pictures. Did he know me? Did he know what I did? Is that why he invited me to the amusement park?

Trust is a very hard thing for me and often people just make me uncomfortable. I had to quit a job had as a waitress because there was a guy who I thought was always staring at me. I couldn't stop thinking, did he recognize me? Did he see my pictures somewhere? I was simply too uncomfortable to keep working there.

I have trouble saying "no" to people since I learned at a young age that I really don't have control over what's happening to me. I am trying to learn to get better at this because I know that not saying "no" makes it easier for someone to hurt me again.

Because of the way my uncle bribed me to perform sex acts on camera, I have trouble taking gifts from anyone. I always feel that people will expect something from me if they give me a present. This makes it difficult in my relationship with friends.

I want to have children someday, but it frightens me terribly to think about how I could keep them safe. Who could I possibly trust? Their teacher? Their coach? I don't know if I could ever trust anyone with my children. And what if my children and their friends see my pictures on the internet? How could I ever explain to them what happened to me?

I am very confused about what love is. My uncle said he loved me and I wanted that love. But I know now that what he did to me is not love. But how will I be able to tell in the future if it is real love or just another person trying to exploit and use me?

The truth is, I am being exploited and used every day and every night somewhere in the world by someone. How can I ever get over this when the crime that is happening to me will never end? How can I get over this when the shameful abuse I suffered is out there forever and being enjoyed by sick people?

I am horrified by the thought that other children will probably be abused because of my pictures. Will someone show my pictures to other kids, like my uncle did to me, thenm tell them what to do? Will they see me and think it's okay for them to do the same thing? Will some sick person see my picture and then get the idea to do the same thing to another little girl? These thoughts make me sad and scared.

I blame myself a lot for what happened. I know I was so little, but why didn't I know better? Why didn't I stop my uncle? Maybe if I had stopped it there wouldn't be so many pictures out there that I can never take back or erase. I feel like now I have to live with it forever and that it's all my fault.

I feel like I am unworthy of anything and a failure. What have I been good for except to be used by others over and over again. That's one of the reasons I haven't been able to get a job or stay in school. I'm tired of disappointing myself. I've already had enough disappointment for a lifetime and just don't want any more failure. To me this brings back all the terrible feelings and shame of abuse and exploitation.

Sometimes I deal with my feelings by trying to forget everything by drinking too much. I know this isn't good, but my humiliation and angry feelings are there with me all the time and sometimes I just need a way to make them go away for awhile.

I feel like I have always had to live a double life. First I had to lie about what my uncle was doing to me. Then I had to act like it didn't, happen because it was too embarrassing. Now I always know that there is another "little me" being seen on the internet by other abusers. I don't want to be there, but I am. I wish I could go back in time and stop my uncle from taking those pictures, but I can't.

Even though I am scared that I will be abused or hurt again because I am making this victim impact statement, I want the court and judge to know about me and what I have suffered and what my life is like. What happened to me hasn't gone away. It will never go away. I am a real victim of child pornography and it effects me every day and everywhere I go.

Please think about me and think about my life when you sentence this person to prison. Why should this person, who is continuing my abuse, be free when I am not free?

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